From his father:
I set of with fists in torn pockets
my coat was threadbare
I followed you muse where you led me
thought of dreams so fine
ah- so rare
Ma Boheme, as translated by Pierre Trudeau, Just Watch Me
So maybe i hate him coz i saw something bigger than he did in himself then. i hate squandered talent.
It was 2011- I had finished my MBA and I could not find a job. I moved home and i did what i always do when im rebuilding, i read autobiographies. I usually read autobiographies of living people who are unknown or famous ppl who are dead.
it says alot about a person how the choose to tell their story. and i loved the brashness of his. but he never mentioned his family. It was odd. but not unfamiliar for men to forget they have families. so he grew up in the shadow of a man who he saw never see his mom.
truthfully when he made his play for leadership i was sitting with friends who were I-bankers who came from india. i was the “canadian” expert.
“what do you think aman?”
the fuck experience does a teacher have to run a country? none
and then there was a moment in the campaign that changed my opinion-
he is a teacher, he can teach.
I didnt care- diversity wash the fucking world
Coz he could sell it.
he was the ideal PM. a man who knew his job was to be an actor. to look the part that came so natural to him.
fucking legalize cannibis man, its 2015.
and then on parliament hill i walked into Bacon and Eggheads and got to hear the impact on the research on cannibis. which cannot be done as it was previously a restricted substance.
so ya- i spoke to the actual Canada research chair on the topic and that year i got my mom on oil so we could help her quit the depression drugs she did not need but doctors loved to prescribe to shut up old cute moms.
they convened a bipartisan committee to research how to do electoral reform. i was doing my policy thesis at Carleton. they wanted to use New Zealand as an example. its the only country that managed to change and NO ONE understand the names of the election format types for proportional government.
why did it not pass?
Canada is 70% white
to win an election you need to win in: Quebec and Ontario
The “western alienation” would end up with less than 20% of white canada in the praries.
so the conservatives saw the writing on the wall. they blocked it.
The Innovation tables:
innovation was studied across ISED. Especially in the fundamental science division. where i was lucky enough to get a job. my supervisor was a wierd but nice, white lady, who knew i was not “coop” dumb.
So when i knew they needed to do a survey. and they were going to dumb dumb style interview the U15 ONLY. i did the only thing i could think of doing:
“listen- u dont have enough work for me, and frankly i never told u im a data scientist, let me take a stab at it”
the analytical survey went out to:
- all cegeps
- all technical schools
- all universities
- all colleges
I designed the excel program to let the fundamental science folks analyze it AFTER i left. THEN they interviewed the U15.
This is the work of DEDICATED public servants across multiple ministries, who have PhDs in innovation policy. This is the leading bible on innovation policy. Click it with some reverence for the months of work we all did.
The result?
If someone can let me know why Mr. Jim Balsille is a voice for innovation in Canada, THE man who was CEO of Blackberry, with a 7 year advantage over Apple and could not convince Mike Lazaridis that he needed to use a touch screen, I shall be grateful.
It might be because he wanted to get some more money from the Government by forcing SDTC companies to take courses at the esteemed Innovation Asset Collective:
Let me be very frank. Mr. Balsillie is the ONLY man who scared the shit out of me. Because when i went to the then, Board of Directors to alert them about SDTC they told me who he was. No- i mean WHO he WAS, like that.
Now i am as they say, “little people”. And i am not sporty sporty people. But when the fucking board of the NHL all agree that you cannot buy a SPORTS TEAM i tend to be shit scared.
I sat with my tea, eyes wide open, most likely jaw in shock expanding at the nature of this mans terror as the board of directors for SDTC began to, “one by one” sit at my table and get group therapy. THAT is how much he terrorized people he works with. ELON MUSK has nothing on Jim Balsille.
But by the time our report on Innovation hit the real table, Mr. Balsille had also made his point known.
As a former prof of innovation and entrepreneurship, i invite him to a public debate. He can also call his friends at the Canadian Council for Innovators and check into me from his bff Maverick Equity, and ask the partners there how much fun it was to be on a panel with me for investments.
Now i know hes him and im me.
and now u know why.
The Freemasons:
I dont care what religion who practices. To be candid if you actually look into the Prime Ministers life he probably had few real friends. So should he have found comradery in a secret society where u get to chill out and just do ur shit, i dont care. whatever gives you peace.
But the word was out- and the first time i found out this was real was when a NAVY reservist told me with alot of excitement he was doing this to meet him. So he could network. I was too freaked out to ask any more questions.
The only thing i will say about the freemasons is they manipulate men. i would theorize this organization is established by the vatican itself. that this shit is real- is a fact of reality i cant comprehend. i have accidentally been in a vault where they hold a meeting. i virtually ran out of the building.
lets talk ONLY about the ceremony for initiation.
You can look this up on ur own. I am trying to be as respectful as this group has been disrespectful in the interpretation of all other religions.
Lets go through the psychology of this:
- Men only
- Fight club rules
- blindfolded having to trust anything ur lodge puts u through as the initiation ritual- NOT standardized.
- A cable around your neck
- guided by other men as they see fit
What does this do to the psychology of a recruit? especially one who has a very real, very honest and very valid reason to not be buddy buddy with his own dad?
You submit to the “father” figure that your “brothers” tell you is right. In so doing you forfeit free will to them.
“im wrong- ill ask the guys”
Consequences:
- only the women the guys like can be included.
- only the guys can make the rules.
- only women who like us and are willing to be chill are good.
- only we have each others back
i will not delve into how a system like this can be co-opted. the analysis of the actual freemasons can be left to those who understand that the word “jihad” has context that is THOUSANDS of years old. it has been semantically shifted in the english lexicon to mean “terrorist”.
Personal disclosure of values: morality
i publicly condemn the taking of life. for the reasons of morality.
I elect to be extremely clear about the exact nature of my own conviction here and i will use Mr. Trudeau’s own policy of Euthanasia, as it SHOULD HAVE been rolled out here.
it is my belief, based on science and my own values that the absolute worst crime on earth is pedophilia. because it takes an innocent mind and defiles its understanding of something it never had any reason to safe guard against. any community in which this is happening should be empowered to eradicate it.
there are two types of pedophiles. those who choose it and those whose biology is, as the biology of sociopaths, unable to contain it.
when they interview real biologically impaired individuals those people would rather die. those people, often, truly cannot help it and should not be criminalized for how they were born. and as a society if we cannot find a solution to this, we should offer them euthanasia. it is humane.
those who choose it should be publicly stoned. man or woman. they should suffer the kind of punishment that indicates to their society that should u define innocence we will defile you.
therefore i cannot support any cause that accepts the taking of life. any life. there is no other morality that exists. because pedophilia and psychopathy do not seem to occur in nature else where.
neither does autism.
so perhaps i too set off once with fists in torn pockets. perhaps i also had coats that remained threadbare. but i never told them i was autistic so they would let me follow my muse where it led me, and i also thought of dreams so fine an so unimaginably rare.
i cant tell u where i ended up, but the painting is my fav. the coat is green.
The white mans burden
the white man sets off in ships to save the world.
why?
because their bothers said convert them and bring me the loot. they hollowed our ur soul in the initiation. in the creation of the “priesthood” the “brotherhood”.
there is only one soul a white man WANTS to save. and today i am UNIQUELY qualified to tell you that soul is his own.
i am qualified in:
- physics
- biology
- math
- psychology
- theology
- english
- hindi
and in my own.
what the vatican has done to men is for history to judge. i am not a man. or a woman. i seek no person-hood of any form. our worlds do not intersect. i will never be a part of ur world. but atleast i found my own.
The ONLY policy Justin Trudeau can propose that makes ME vote for him
free mental health services, non denominational for ALL MEN.
i researched it to exacting specification when i was at ISED. i spent MONTHS talking to experts, Mr. Trudeau you wanna be a feminist?
change the definition of masculinity. be the poster child for becoming, from your own history, to:
- best dad
- best friend
- flawed
- recovering
- learning
- accepting
- trying
- crying
- fighting
be a man. the right man for 2024- fuck feminism. i got feminism — be u.
you got nothing to prove man. ur better when ur a lil raw in ur feelings. leave the PM post elevate to a position of meaning. stay in the government. create the Minister of Men- and show them how cool it is to jive to swifty coz u r also nifty. and u best bud loves her. and look- u wore all the bracelets.
be ur own man. ur too old for this shit. so r the rest of us.
