Processing being a minority in Canada right now

writing is a form of therapy for me. i get it out then its not in me. its really hard to see how the racism is destroying my community. i care deeply about people and its hard.

i live in alberta- edmonton. we used to be a very welcoming city. i would always joke that someone would have to be real unfriendly to be able to make it in edmonton 6 months without making alot of friends. truthfully edmonton and newfies have alot on in common that way. its cold here and its harsh. the weather is unyielding. so we r indoors alot. and until recently we used to share a pint.

its all different now. its like white nationalism has taken hold. and u can feel it. the hopelessness — the shame. if your a minority in edmonton now, i think it feels as i would imagine the reserves felt. it feels wrong. walking to the grocery store i feel like im committing a crime.

they treat men and women of color different. for obvious reasons. they exploit the women, and make sure the men know they cant do anything to help. and the only way to get ahead as a man, is to step on women.

so we are seeing alot more domestic violence now. no one wants to call the cops, cops never listen. they never did before. assault is commonplace, crime is exploding.

and those men who refuse to play ball- depression and suicide are through the roof. so is drug use and alcohol abuse. honestly, i dont know what to do. i dont know who to ask for help. the politics of the day is…