My mental health bday- turning 1

personal reflections

i love my bday. alot more than normal ppl. its the one day i tell everyone to leave me alone. i have ZERO guilt for saying — go away. and my bday is generally shit.

i was born in april. this is my actual bday month- and what happens in april? fucking final exams. ive always had an exam around my bday. but when i left home and graduated my friends did the nicest thing on earth for me. they knew i was buying my own cake and card coz like we r immigrants. and everyone was tired but i was the only one with a drivers license. to help the family out.

ppl used to drive drunk then. and i 100% threatened my dad and all his friends that i would call the cops if they did it. my dad is a cop. so i got a license and i drove them. but my friends LOVE ME.

so we were in calgary- and it was 2007- and these guys planned a full day of events. they actually baked a cake from scratch. it was a strawberry shortcake. i remember the restaurant they took me to and the cake at my friends apartment after. like it was yesterday. near Kensington.

for reasons i cant explain- in 2019 i became obsessed with mental health. i was convinced i was traumatized. and i could not explain it. the truth is i was raised in a very loving family. my childhood does have the obvious marks of things like khalistan or 9/11 but we all knew that was wrong. so i didnt have any issues with that.