Its ok- you dont have to have hope

It was after 2000 EST- she was sitting on my fav chair. it swiveled- and i loved that chair. I was on the couch. wine in hand, my house so the appys flowed.

I had been the eldest of them. and they didnt listen to me. and she could no longer get a job. so after a year, overlooking the byward market- my heart broke as i told her that she had to leave.

im sorry. your going to lose. we are all going to lose. even the people who win are going to lose. but that is not the point. it was never about the science, the evidence. ask a woman. there is never enough evidence. and then, shes a whore. she flirted. she was inviting it. fine- it happened, but it was justified.

its just that simple. there will never be justice in a world like this.

as the young people now find out, that when u speak truth, u will only meet the blunt edge of a baton. as someone who always met the baton, i must now teach how to take the blow.

dont expect to win. dont go there with the rage of indignation. dont expect honor or nobility. expect the worst of it. expect to be beaten. pepper sprayed. dont think they look just like my dad- they cant hurt me. dont be a fool. dont be ignorant. dont be fucking naive.

if u r old enough to be a fucking sand nigger- if ur old enough to be trained on how to survive a school shooting, then ur fucking old enough to grow the fuck up. dont be a dumb ass.