feministFront: The Why
It was 2018, i never wanted management. i am a tech nerd. i like the math. i like knowing why. i dont like selling bullshit. managers and executives need this fucking ass licking shit i cant do.
did u understand the fucking graph? or do i need to adjust them up 30% to explain it?
they always have alot of words to explain their no real sentence. i need a layer of management between me and the stupid up there. but i fucking love math.
when i teach the math to a few guys, they make up a new job title and i gotta find a new place to do math. i am very neurodivergent. i thought it would be helpful. but alas type 1 autism. i never saw what u saw eh.
no- thank YOU for the education.
i also thought every 6ft tall white man was worth “networking” with until one day i opened my computer and a 27 yr old one committed suicide coz no one was looking in his direction. you ever be the oldest in a group of ppl who knew someone and have to plan a fucking funeral?
im empathic.
second time a woman has hugged me and left a part of my soul on the other side. she looked at me almost jealous. then she hated herself for it. i would have traded if i could have. i just saw em all as they were.
nah i saw color. i saw the wierd archetypes too. i just never judged for who they were.
so then when SHE sat in my house, on my fav chair, drinking my fav wine and asked me after she was led astry by another white woman, what do i do now. and when i heard myself say:
“leave the department”
i had only one regret. he had not sexually harassed me.
they never tried. that is how smart the guys i work with know i am.
i expected david vs goliath. ive read the book twice.
let the record show if these times evolve as expected. i was never harassed or exploited for being a woman. or ethnic. i was discriminated against because i am a protected minority class under the human rights acts. as a person with disability status in Canada, i was ONLY targeted AFTER asking for accommodation.
my ONLY claim is that i was denied ACCOMMODATION. as is evidenced by all the public information i made available about CIBC. I do not even claim that CIBC should have done my transactions with due process, my only claim is that upon repeated requests to explain their reasoning they denied me an explanation. that uncertainty and variability in both my financial situation and the cause for such denial caused me repeated autistic meltdowns.
CIBC has since claimed that i was a “scary woman” and has cancelled ALL OF MY financial accounts. In addition i was told that if i ever step foot at a branch i would be arrested. because i tried to ONCE record their employees a practice customers cannot opt out of.
I do not know how brown women are supposed to be treated in civil society. i am that autistic. should you want to provide me with a guideline for what my brown lady service expectations should have been, i shall then remove the analytical reasons why i believe i was only denied service because i was autistic.
